I have a confession to make. I confess that I started this year off thinking and expecting how perfect this year would be.

I would finally get to go to Uni and do my dream course (Physiotherapy). Of course, I would have to also be a High Distinction Achieving student. Jayden would be a little older and would finally start sleeping through the night. I would finally be a superb cook and housekeeper who somehow have superpowers that allowed me to do all housework in a day and done well to meet my perfectionist standards as well as whip up delicious, healthy nutricious meals in the kitchen, and still have time for the gym. Ah, the Gym. I would exercise everyday and of course FINALLY end up with Jessica Alba's body. I would be a seemingly perfect smokin' hot (okay as hot as can be once all pregnancy considered) woman, wife and mother whom all would envy, one that would wrestle with the dog and sleep with the cat at her feet. We would take family trips and outings on the weekend and spend quality time with Jayden, and teach him to grow up as the angelic child who never throws tantrums. God forbid if he cries in anger.

In all my life would be perfect. I would be the perfect wife, mother, cook, housekeeper, student.... list goes on.

Anyway, today marks the second week of Uni. Only one of these things has happened - Jayden has finally started sleeping more or less, through the night!!

As for the others, I must confess I am a looongg way off from being perfect. And finding time for everything. After having consecutive nightmares of failing the entire first semester, as well as having recurring dreams about Human Anatomy Terminology and the Pelvis (I kid you not, this has been happening all last week), I have fallen very, VERY much behind on readings.

A full load of four university courses, as I have discovered, is not to be taken lightly. Even with trying my best, I still find that I am constantly behind. This in turn has made me behind in every other aspect of life - ie, the housework, Jayden time, the bookkeeping and Enjo Business..

I have found this past week that there is too little time in a day. This has resulted in me sleeping at 1-2am on most nights, doing the cleaning/folding clothes at 2am in the morning is an experience you should all try.. and I do not see this lightening up. At all. In fact it is bound to get more stressful as the semester wears on.

I confess, I STILL want to have the all aforementioned things in my life - who doesnt?!! Any ideas on how you all do it?? Please let me know but for now, its back to the Pelvis, knee, bones... skeletal structure...